“Been there done that, messed around, I’m having fun don’t put me down, I won’t let you sweep me off my feet…”
Oh the trials of my life. I’m trying my best to maintain two blogs, write a book, get a girlfriend, make some money and improve myself. Seems like a lot to juggle but I think everyone could say something similar. My recent re dedication to writing has helped me a lot. I’ve pretty much dropped the burden of always assuming what I write is crap. I try my best to be objective and criticize it but I think I go a bit too hard. Plus there’s something said to just be creating. Even if it’s not good, it’s something. Half the battle is putting words down most of the time so at the very least I got the juice flowing.
I think I have a problem. Somehow the girls I am attracted to always seem to be ones I’m not supposed to. Not in the married or dating sense (ok sometimes..) but for any reason. I’m crushing a little bit on my best friends ex. Considering the girl I’m still in love with was his OTHER ex…this could be bad. I can’t really judge where shes at or if I even have a chance. At the moment I’ve kept it platonic and just given her a place to chill and relax. Though in doing that I think it can only help any other motives I may strive for later. Who knows. She’s gone through a ton in the past year and probably is just looking for something stable and nice? We’ve only hung out twice but it was very enjoyable and I like her company. She’s slightly younger than me which is new since I almost always date older girls. I almost feel like I can help her for once. Considering my relationships usually consist of a girl trying to “save” me, that’d be nice. I don’t need the saving anymore. I’m going to do that on my own. No girl can do that for you.
Though I certainly believe that a loving relationship makes me happy, I don’t know if it’s the best thing. I tend to get wrapped up in love and forget to take care of my OWN needs and problems. At the moment an theories on my love life are purely speculative anyweay since there’s nothing going on. Always in pursuit of some challenge though. Hopefully success comes at some point.
